fuck
its almost time for me to apply for a college

i dont have a fucking clue what to do
im so unprepared
i dont know what i want to do in life and i dont know what college i want or can go to

and ive been screwing up in school
i did so bad this year that i dont even know if can go to Oregon State!
how fucking sad is that??!

i mean i know i can do better next year but that might be too late

so i might have to go to psu which i dont want to do
i mean i like the school and everything about it except the four year program(all the required classes that you would take in your first two years is spread out into four years into one class)

and thats a big thing to consider if you're going there
i thought that it would be good
but then i talked to some people who went/are going to psu and they hate the program
its just a bunch of busy work that you dont learn much from and it takes up all four years

im so lost
i seriously dont know what to do
i if i cant go to Oregon State
im definately not going to psu
i might just go to a community college and transfer to Oregon State

wonderful day
with some mom issues
but everything else was just grand

heheeeeeee <3333

BAAAAH
I LOVE HIM!!

two more days til a WHOLE YEAR!

<33333333

it hasnt changed since school got out...

poo

good things never last

bored




bored




bored


LA class in computer lab


mmk


i love my sweeite




uh huh


♥

:( i'll just spare you from the jiber jaber. i just need a hug..

i hate it all
and im sick of it all
i wish i didnt care
but alas.. i do

im gonna try my best to not care
why is it such a big deal anyway? i honestly dont know why i get so annoyed by it or why i get so worked up about it. i should just NOT CARE

fuuuuuckkkkkkkkkkerrrrrrzzzz

what a grand day it is
its sunny and beautiful
but im not allowed out!!!!

my mom sucks

is anyone there?
has everyone died?
there never seems to be anyone around or by my side

sheesh..its getting pretty sad